I Found Love.

I have been thinking, whether to let you know that there is someone new in my life, and there is, I finally found the courage to try and move on, give others the opportunity to hurt me and hope they won't do it.

I found the strength in my body to say to a new person that I love her, and I wonder but hope that you found someone new too and tough we are apart when we once were so close, I truly hope you are happy.

But this poem... this one is for my new love.

''I wanted a mansion once, until I met you, now the only place  I want to live in is inside your heart. 

I once desired diamonds, until I met you, now the only sparkle I need comes from within. 

I used to crave the finest clothing, until I met you, now I want not a single thread to separate our bodies.

I once coveted a fancy car, until I met you, now I want nothing that would put miles between us.

I once prayed for money, until I met you, now I want none of the things money can buy.

I once yearned for a sense of security, until I met you, now my only security comes in knowing you are near.

I once dreamt of a prestigious job, until I met you, now I found my success in knowing that you are happy

I once asked for the world on a silver platter, until I met you, now you are my world and I want for nothing but your touch.''

Loving you has been my teacher, you taught me not to want, being with you

has been my discovery, you were all that I wanted and finding you has been my salvation

I now understand grateful but perhaps most importantly that your love in 

return has been my everything and I thank you for the time I got to know you, maybe we meet again in another life.

but now my I love you, or Ik hou van jou, goes to my new girlfriend.

M

The Story Of A Heart

Sorry that this story took so long, I did not have a lot of inspiration lately and I couldn't find interesting, sweet and kind things to write since I've written already many, many things here on my blog but this is something new I've been working on, I tried to make it something that will speak to you when you read it and I hope it will show that how good something may be, It can always be better than it looks and time will tell it to you if the impression you have of someone will stay the same all the time or gets better or worse

Have a good time reading and I hope you will remember better times

''You will remember it all you life when you meet a person that fits you so, so well that you want to tell him everything and want to share everything with him, that life seems nothing but a party and that it doesn't matter where he is, where he is from, if he is rich or poor or is cute or not, you know you want to be there so bad that it physically hurts that you aren't there, it is called ''a true love''

A person that has a listening ear for you and where you can spill all your problems without being judged for them, where that person tries to be the best for you and make you happy every single way he can, even tough he isn't perfect he tries to be perfect for you just to make you happy and feel good

When this person makes you happy you start to feel warm inside, your heart starts to glow and give you wonderful feelings inside and you know you want more, you started to get addicted to this person but it is commonly known as ''being in love'' and it is true, when you're in love you don't want anything else than be with the person you're in love with all the time and try to make this person as happy as this person makes you happy
If we ask Wikipedia what love is Wikipedia will say that it is an emotional reaction to a person that gives chemical reactions that feel good but I think what we had was so much stronger, what we had was so, so perfect, it was way further than in love, you weren't my true love, you were so much more, like a ''soul/heart/mind/body mate'' I don't know how else to describe it

Every moment I was with you it was like a dream, the way we could talk the talk, how the connection between us was so strong from the beginning, that every night we smiled together when we imagined everything we wanted to, that we loved each other already from the beginning and that you made me feel the way no one has ever done before and I can still feel you inside my heart, I hear your voice in my head telling me everything will be alright while it isn't, but just to hear it makes me feel better, my heart still plays our story when I feel sad, just like it did when I wasn't here and in the moments I wanted to give up, your voice made me continue my way

But like every good story, there is a sad part too... what happens when 2 people love each other with all their heart but can never be together, well let's just say 3 years but that's no difference with forever, what would you do? would you give up or stick together, Will your love fight the tears of your lover and make him/her believe that even tough you're far, your mind is always with that person and that you will always be there, not physical but in his/her heart, can you beat time?
It's something we've been telling ourselves for a long time that we would never give up and that it's just 3 years, but no matter how strong a love is, missing you won in the end and cost me you.

''Our story hasn't ended yet, our story is always writing something new when the ends starts to come near, so just believe me when I say that there will always be a little bit of me with you all your life'' even tough there are moments we will be lonely and alone in a room, inside we will never be alone again, no matter what life brings us, my heart will never forget our story and I love you always

It isn't fair that the true hearts can't be together always, that the cheaters and the people that don't love each other can be together but that's the way love is, when you find someone that makes you sing you just have to do more afford to get what is really just your to have, you can just give your heart to one person
This person becomes the most precious thing in life when your heart tells you that he/she is the one for you to grow old with, don't doubt because of anything, when he/she is the right person for you go for it and do all you can to convince him/her that you are made for each other and make your own little fairy tale like I have had with You, a Story Of A Heart

So believe me when I say that I love you, I made this blog that is dedicated to you because I love you and every post I made beside 'Father's Day'' all are related to you to express the feelings I have in that moment or that day about you or because of you, I've written a song for you because I love you and still haven't posted it because I think you won't like it but one day I will, I really miss you and I think it is a shame we aren't together anymore and I've got to live with it and that I don't like it won't change it so I can only let it be the way it is now.

What the future will bring to you is happiness, I know it and won't stand in your way for you to find it because I wish you all the happiness in the world even tough it means that I can't give it to you, but my heart will never forget you and our story, so whatever happens..

I Love you

M

The Days I Miss

"Good morning my love" is how I started my day with you almost every day, needed to wish you a good morning every morning, following with "how you slept my love?" I just had to know if you slept well and that you had good dreams and usually you had them, so we could talk the morning about the dreams, usually we compared them and looked like we dreamt about the same things, sometimes about nature, sometimes about being together, sometimes about bad things and sometimes about strawberries, just about anything, you name is and I've dreamt of it
after the morning we both always had to go away for like 30-40 minutes because our parents would call us for lunch and it was always too long, always on a moment that we had fun, always when the smiles were the biggest and the jokes were the best, so we had to say the riddle we always said, ''have a good lunch'' ''big, big kiss'' & ''M**<3R*****'' and than we had to go to lunch and we couldn't wait till the other person was back again so we could talk again
so we were always very interested in the lunch the other person had, if it was good or if the parents were annoying again or maybe if someones little brother threw with food or whatever strange thing might happened, we always could laugh about it and than it always turned in wanting to give a kiss or a hug or just be able to look in your eyes but it never happened...
than just all afternoon talking about different subjects, sometimes about good things like spending the day in a jacuzzi or about serious issues like euthanasia and abortion, just about things that are important in your and my life that we discussed and usually shared the same opinion on it, and I loved it when we could get mad at our brother and sister and the other could laugh because could see and hear it so after could always do a little bad
so when the night started we always had dinner at different times so was always bad because when I finished dinner your just started so sometimes had to wait long times but you were so worth it so than till the night we just gave random movie reviews and sometimes just said things that no made sense but every day from morning till midnight, we said everything with love, every word, no matter the meaning of the word was just love and it was a beautiful time, and it is what I miss every day :'(

M