I Found Love.

I have been thinking, whether to let you know that there is someone new in my life, and there is, I finally found the courage to try and move on, give others the opportunity to hurt me and hope they won't do it.

I found the strength in my body to say to a new person that I love her, and I wonder but hope that you found someone new too and tough we are apart when we once were so close, I truly hope you are happy.

But this poem... this one is for my new love.

''I wanted a mansion once, until I met you, now the only place  I want to live in is inside your heart. 

I once desired diamonds, until I met you, now the only sparkle I need comes from within. 

I used to crave the finest clothing, until I met you, now I want not a single thread to separate our bodies.

I once coveted a fancy car, until I met you, now I want nothing that would put miles between us.

I once prayed for money, until I met you, now I want none of the things money can buy.

I once yearned for a sense of security, until I met you, now my only security comes in knowing you are near.

I once dreamt of a prestigious job, until I met you, now I found my success in knowing that you are happy

I once asked for the world on a silver platter, until I met you, now you are my world and I want for nothing but your touch.''

Loving you has been my teacher, you taught me not to want, being with you

has been my discovery, you were all that I wanted and finding you has been my salvation

I now understand grateful but perhaps most importantly that your love in 

return has been my everything and I thank you for the time I got to know you, maybe we meet again in another life.

but now my I love you, or Ik hou van jou, goes to my new girlfriend.

M

The Desolate One

Finally a little inspiration in this broken mind to write about, just the inspiration comes out in little fragments of what the original might would have been, this solitude that I'm in for quite a while now hasn't been good for me, just made my life just a little bit hard you know, the little hope you have or the light that always shines in the dark is slowly fading away again, just going further and further away from the point you are at this moment, that it makes my life a little more dark, but luckily you are there..

You will always look the same because the pictures on the wall don't age with me and it is hard to think we've promised to be together always while you will always be 18 on the wall, never aging and always looking as beautiful as the day you made it, but it is hard like I told you before, that promises and trusting people will never be the same

I haven't been able to be in my room as often as I'd like, I still have to paint it and decorate it, some things on the wall and give it a home feeling like I haven't had in months, need to make it my new home while it still feels like an empty shell that I have to live in, far away from all that I want, need, love and desire, just away from you is what makes it more harsh and more painful but as everything, it was inevitable that this moment would happen , love and happiness just weren't and aren't made for me, despite what people say and what you've said, It is hard but unfortunately it is the truth, whether I like it or not

In contradiction of my last post, I'm doing quite bad the last few days, got a lot of headaches and my body just tells me to stop moving and rest in peace, and instead of doing the things that are important i'm just sitting here behind my laptop playing games, sometimes I work a little and I'm waiting till you write something, but unfortunately you don't and I think I should stop looking for it.

There's no one here, there's no one there to wait for me, not in this life or in another...you were all that I needed..

I'm The Desolate One

M