Today

It's been a long time since I've written here, I've started a new life, started and quit a study and I've found myself a new Girlfriend, we're already together for 7 months and I hope we never quit being together, being with her makes me happy, makes me smile every time and because some things in life  you can't go through another time, and I won't go through it another time

In this moment things are quite rough, there's a lot of tension, a lot of stress, expectations and many, many more things, but I can deal with it, for nowWhen you are afraid of what may happen next, what may happen in a few weeks up to a couple of months, than maybe this isn't what you are looking for.

Bút if you are willing to fight, to see pass mistakes and imperfections, to see through the curtains of schadow that surrounds someones inner soul, and you see where you are made of, the tin air that you never show someone, reveal it to the one you love and all you will know is happiness

This is just for one person what I will write next, if you're not that person, don't read it:

 Lieve Simone, we hebben nu al 7 maanden iets en ik ben hartstikke gek op je en hou heel veel van je, waarom ben je toch zo bang dat ik verliefd op iemand anders ben en waarom maken we er zoveel ruzie om iets wat er niet is, ik mis jou ook, wanneer ik moet werken of wanneer ik zoals nu alleen thuiszit om te zien en te realiseren wat hier niet is, ik hou van je.

M

Thanks !

I don't know why and I don't care why but 50.000 people viewed my blog and it's story
 so this one is for you all.

thank you :)


M

I Found Love.

I have been thinking, whether to let you know that there is someone new in my life, and there is, I finally found the courage to try and move on, give others the opportunity to hurt me and hope they won't do it.

I found the strength in my body to say to a new person that I love her, and I wonder but hope that you found someone new too and tough we are apart when we once were so close, I truly hope you are happy.

But this poem... this one is for my new love.

''I wanted a mansion once, until I met you, now the only place  I want to live in is inside your heart. 

I once desired diamonds, until I met you, now the only sparkle I need comes from within. 

I used to crave the finest clothing, until I met you, now I want not a single thread to separate our bodies.

I once coveted a fancy car, until I met you, now I want nothing that would put miles between us.

I once prayed for money, until I met you, now I want none of the things money can buy.

I once yearned for a sense of security, until I met you, now my only security comes in knowing you are near.

I once dreamt of a prestigious job, until I met you, now I found my success in knowing that you are happy

I once asked for the world on a silver platter, until I met you, now you are my world and I want for nothing but your touch.''

Loving you has been my teacher, you taught me not to want, being with you

has been my discovery, you were all that I wanted and finding you has been my salvation

I now understand grateful but perhaps most importantly that your love in 

return has been my everything and I thank you for the time I got to know you, maybe we meet again in another life.

but now my I love you, or Ik hou van jou, goes to my new girlfriend.

M

Not Mine

I once felt the strength of your arms
As they embrassed my ever-loving body,
The warmth of your heart
As you placed your lips oh, so gently to mine,
The serenity of your love as you traced my every line,
The passion in your eyes as you stared deep into my soul.

Do I dare ask where all of that has gone?
The strength has turned to weakness
And the warmth to frigid breath,
The serenity to hostility
And the passion to necessity.

Why?...
Why is all that you felt for me
All of a sudden so far away?
Will it ever return someday?

I look deep into myself,
To see if it's me who's changed
But, I find no answers to my questions.
To this, I guess, my heart is destined.

Destined to be lonely, never to be free.
Ask what you will, my love
But, please just ask for me.
In my heart... you'll always be.

M

Vanessa Carlton - 1000 Miles

Makin' my way downtown,
Walkin' fast,
Faces pass and I'm homebound.

Starin' blankly ahead,
Just makin' my way,
Makin' a way through the crowd.

And I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.

It's always times like these
When I think of you,
And wonder if you ever think of me.

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong.
Livin' in your precious memory.

'Cause I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.

I, I, don't wanna let you know
I, I, drown in your memory.
I, I, don't wanna let this go.
I, I, don't.

Makin' my way downtown,
Walkin' fast,
Faces pass and I'm homebound.

Starin' blankly ahead,
Just makin' my way,
Makin' a way through the crowd.

And I still need you,
And I still miss you,
And now I wonder...

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
Would pass.. us by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...

oh oh

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you.

If I could just hold you....
Tonight.