I'm going to miss you

I'm going to miss you, every single word you said and every smile you ever showed me, I'm going to miss them
I still wish that we didn't end up this way but we did and I feel bad about it, because I used to hope we would have a future together, but no, we don't.

I used to believe that what we had was special, so special that only you and I could feel it, that other people would never have it and that we would be together forever but I was wrong, we were wrong

We had a lot of  'first-times' together and I'm glad they were with you, but still it eats a little in my head, because I wanted you to be the only one for all time, live my life with you and one day die with you, but I can only say that it was a silly dream, my dreams never come true

I wish you happiness too and a wonderful life, and I'm sorry it had to end this way, I can tell you about the problems I had last week and why I didn't post or send a text back but it would make me sad to say all things that happen lately so I'm not going to tell them and just so you know, I started studying Chinese, so I'll stay far away from you

Everything we've been through, all things we've shared, the ring and the letter, the long nights and all the good and bad stories, the imaginations and dreams, I'll keep them and remember you always, I remember what you meant for me and what love can be when you are with the right person, you know that I'll miss you and that you will always have a special place in my heart, I hope it will be the same for you

But does it mean that it is the end, I don't know, life is a mystery and so was our story and even tough you gave me a cold goodbye I still want to end it with..

Adelitas Way - Alive

Maybe when the moon and sun rise up together, I can be happy again
And even tough that day is not close to today, I want you to know this:

What if I told you that I think you're perfect?
Beautiful sky in your eyes, it's so worth it.
I know you make me feel alive.

What if I told you that I'm in forever?
Nothing to hide, yeah, I'll go wherever you go.
You make me feel alive.

And I'll be hanging on every word you say to me.
Hanging on a feeling that I get,
'Cause you make me

Laugh a little louder,
Love a little harder.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Every time it's something new.
Never knew what love could feel like
Until I walked away the first time.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Deep inside, it's something true.
You're the only reason I fight,
You're the best thing in my life.

What if I told you that I'd never hurt you?
Always be there for you to hold on to.
I know you make me feel alive.

And every single second's a lifetime memory,
I'll be holding on to every second
'Cause you make me

Laugh a little louder,
Love a little harder.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Every time it's something new.
Never knew what love could feel like
Until I walked away the first time.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Deep inside, it's something true.
You're the only reason I fight,
You're the best thing in my life.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
When I'm with you.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Every time it's something new.
Never knew what love could feel like
Until I walked away the first time.

And I feel alive when I'm with you.
Deep inside, it's something true.
You're the only reason I fight,
You were the best thing in my life.

One Sad Person

Have you ever felt so lonely that it hurt, that when you look around and all you see are happy couples, seeing them smile and just look so in love and you ask yourself why you can't be part of that couple, than you know how I've felt all my life

I know I could never keep the love of my life, I already knew it from the start, because nothing good ever happens to me, why can't I be the lucky guy for once in my life, why can't I have what I want just once

I am not perfect, I admit it and yes, I make my mistakes and I even lie sometimes, but haven't I been punished enough, isn't being all my life alone and losing the love of my life enough for the bad things I've done and you should know that I even lied to you.. once, because I didn't know the answer, you asked me once if I'd love you just as much as I said I did if you didn't have anymore what you wanted me to have and I said ''yes, I would'' but that was a lie, the right answer should have been that I didn't know it, because you would have been a different person.

Since I have a lot of time to think during the day I ask myself if it was all worth it, give away my heart, get my heart back broken and now it got attacked, and on top of that being alone is slowly consuming me, nothing is as bad as being alone, that's why everyone is together, that why there are so many happy couples, that's why there is just one sad person

M